I co-wrote this track with my dear friend Jed Brewer over email.
lyrics
YOU WANT ME
If any of you knew the things I think about
How dark it is inside my mind - just rage and fear and doubt
I wake up and I'm angry; I fall asleep so sad
And in between I'm guilty for the times I've been so bad
If everything inside me suddenly was known,
You'd run away and I would be alone
If any of you knew the things that I have done
The crimes I have committed, You would turn and run
I've broken faith and trust with those who called me "friend"
Then I turned around and did it all again
I know that I'm past hope, I know I'm all used up
'Cause everyone I've ever known someday runs out of love
You say You've seen the dark and deep
What's hidden down inside
Lord, You know the secret me
And still You gave Your life
It's so hard to believe,
but, Jesus, You want me
If any of you knew the way I feel inside
The secrets I keep locked behind the smiles that cover lies
When I see the bathroom mirror, I only think of how
I'm unloved and that makes sense because no one wants me now
People who are special are people who aren't me
And, Jesus, may I ask if you agree?
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